the painting i see every night before closing my eyes and every morning when i open them. "she will find what is lost" by brian kershisnik
sleeping
waking.
husband knows.
i'm still
but awake.
our world is quiet
but theirs' is not.
"they are talking to you."
i hear the smile in his sleep.
he knows.
"go,"
he says.
his words, that i can hear,
push me out of bed.
i'm coming.
i'm coming.
i don't hear their voices
but i listen to the empty.
i don't feel their hands
but my head turns.
i don't see them
but they help me to see.
guiding.
pointing.
hoping.
the world is asleep
while i am
seeking
searching
finding.
don't forget me.
remember,
remember me.
tell my story.
i will,
help me to find it.
and i do.
don't forget him
says the mother cradling a baby.
there
there
look there.
she knows
where.
she points
i turn.
her whole hope based on
one line.
one record.
she guides,
i find.
there.
her son.
"infant, boy."
there are more.
they are
crowding
waiting
pleading.
i am
praying
typing
reading.
seeking
seeking
seeking
my ears strain in the darkness
my fingers pray across the keyboard
my hope bigger than the task.
a picture appears before me
my heart swells
with joy,
with recognition?
with peace.
i found you.
i found you.
i feel the echo.
you found me.
you found me.
--tim's 5th great aunt, from scotland, a preacher's wife who loved to sit with her husband before the fire in the evenings.--
--and the list of babies, not ever pictured, who i have been blessed to find.
love it!
Posted by: Joan | March 06, 2014 at 10:47 PM
SO beautiful.
Posted by: Lani | March 07, 2014 at 09:34 AM
It sounds like she was a beautiful lady both inside and out. I am sure you will rejoice together when you have the opportunity to meet on the other side of the veil.
Posted by: Heather | March 07, 2014 at 04:03 PM
Thank you, Brook.
Posted by: cari | March 08, 2014 at 08:20 AM
Oh wow, Brook. This is just... wow... I wish I had a better word than that but this is just lovely. "Fingers praying across the keyboard". Sister friend, you are amazing!
Posted by: Olivia | March 10, 2014 at 09:48 PM