my altar is missing.
our kitchen table is on loan for a few weeks.
and i didn't realize how central it was to our family.
we have one lone barstool at the counter now and i added a few short chairs.
it was a good wake up call for me this week to see that the sacrifices laid on this altar DO matter.
i've been feeling burned out.
when it comes to kitchen prep and dinner.
and again, i think it was good for me to touch bottom, so i could push my feet against that pool's cement and force myself back up.
sometimes, it is only in the absence of something that we see it's value.
and this post has been bubbling inside me for a bit.
this repetition of seasons has brought it around.
four years since i was introduced to whole foods.
four and a half years since i started making green smoothies.
four and a half years since any of our family has been to the doctor for a non-emergency, non-check up visit.
that is a miracle.
and today, as i see the absence in my kitchen, the hole where my table--my kitchen altar should be--i miss it.
strangely, but achingly so.
and last night, as my kids joined me for unrequired, spontaneous dinner prep, i knew those sacrifices i had laid down were worth it.
and the ones i had laid down for myself were worth it.
are worth it.
i am grateful for my mentors toward wholeness: ellen, cali, amy, felice, julia, marla, daniel and my countless friends who have supported me along the way.
today, i felt like hugging my green smoothie. and it was a good one (trader joes coconut milk, green smoothie girl's chocolate protein powder, vanilla, dark leafy greens, bananas and strawberries).
and i felt like hugging all the things i have learned and all the people who have taught me.
and i have an idea brewing about how to share all the awesomeness. . .
and i want to acknowledge the miracle of last year that our family did not once come down with the flu. for the first time ever bronwyn and davis did not miss one day of school for sickness. and skyler only missed a couple for small colds. i wanted to share this post with more than a few great ideas for health during for the fall and winter.